If You’re Struggling With Recovery, You’re Not Alone

I’ve gone back and forth about writing this.

Not because I don’t have things to say, but because I don’t want this space to feel like advice, or answers, or a version of recovery that’s tied up neatly.

I’m writing here because there are parts of recovery, body image, and growing up that don’t feel explainable yet. Parts that feel confusing, unfinished, or hard to say out loud without immediately feeling like I should already be past them.

Some days I feel like I’m doing better.

Some days I feel stuck.

Some days I don’t really know how I feel

For a long time, I thought that meant I was failing. At recovery. At confidence. At being an adult. At all of it.

I’m starting to realize it might just mean I’m human.

This space is for the in-between moments.

For eating disorder recovery that doesn’t move in a straight line.

For body image that still takes up a lot of space in my head.

For confidence that comes and goes.

For being in your twenties, single, and unsure who you’re becoming even when it looks like you should have it figured out by now.

I don’t have answers here. I’m not writing this to teach anyone how to heal or how to fix themselves. I’m just writing honestly about what this has felt like for me, because I know how lonely it can be to carry these thoughts quietly.

If you’re reading this and recognizing yourself in any of it.. the confusion, the exhaustion, the not okay feeling, I want you to know you’re not alone. You’re not weak for still struggling. You’re not broken for feeling the way you do. And you don’t need to be “better” to start living your life.

This isn’t a place to fix anything.

It’s just a place to sit for a moment.

With honesty.

And with company.

This is a personal shared journal, not medical advice. If you’re struggling with an eating disorder and need immediate support, help is available. If you’re in the U.S., you can call or text 988.